Let me state up front that I hardly grasp quantum physics. As I have stated before, i’m only curious of many things. Things that have the potential to blow my mind, attract me lol. I could have never, ever been a physicist. Ever. So I don’t want anything thinking i’m trying to give the impression that I think I am some sort of scientist or anything LOL.
I’ve just always been so fascinated by the world and us and how we fit into the world and God and just……reality. I have never been able to just accept things as they are…. anything, really. I want to know why. I am here, this is my life, this is my life situation, but….. why? This is the typical sequence of events in a lifetime….. but why? And i’ve always looked at people as robots that have been programed to act in a certain way and think certain things and just like a robot, they don’t question it. They just do whatever it is they are programmed to do. So, talking to people has sometimes felt like talking to robots. You do come across those few who, like you, just can’t take the world at face value….. and that’s always a breath of fresh air…. but this entire world around us is run on a very precise system with set ways of thinking and I just always wanted to know why.
For instance. Something SO silly. WHY can’t I go to my next door neighbor’s house and ask if he and his wife would like to just sit down and talk about life. Why? Well…. technically, I could. I don’t know them. We’ve said hello but that’s it. So it would be super creepy to just randomly knock on their door and ask to chat. Why? Why are all buildings painted neutral colors? There are so many different colors in the world and nature isn’t neutral by a stretch…. so why do we place these stupid limits on ourselves? Isn’t there like, bigger fish to fry? Like ending wars and curing diseases and ending world hunger? So many serious issues to deal with in this world yet we stress ourselves out over whether the color we choose to paint our homes and businesses might offend others. It’s always seemed so crazy to me.
And fear….. we are taught at such a young age that the world is scary and dangerous and even we are scary and dangerous and so we’ve pretty much been enslaved our whole lives…. slaves to our own fears and limitations….. and we just accept it. Even when we call it out, call it like it is, even when we know we are living in bondage, we don’t try to set ourselves free…. we are so paranoid, we are scared of true freedom. We’ve been prisoners for so long, we don’t know what we’d do if we were to escape it. So we stay in this cozy little comfortable existence and just wait for it to pass us by…. hope we get some good experiences out of it but most of us aren’t really pressing our luck. No, we don’t strive to be president. We don’t think big….. most of us don’t. We don’t want to make any sort of a splash, we just want to gently slip in, wade around and make as few ripples as possible until one day we just sort of sink to the bottom and fade away….. And what awaits us on the other side? Something better than this, of course…. hopefully a life in which we won’t be burdened by so many options and difficult decisions.
This life isn’t important. I tell myself that sometimes. I am guilty as anyone else is. This life is so brief it almost doesn’t even exist…… but if that were the case, why bother? Why strive for anything at all? Everything should be permissible and nothing matters. If this life isn’t important, if it’s not about this life, you have to take that one to the bank. You can’t cherry pick it. If it doesn’t matter, go buck. Quit your job. Leave your home. Do whatever. Have a blast.
This life IS important. We are here at this moment in time for a very specific reason……
But time….. time makes my head spin, it makes me go crazy. If there is something that exists outside of our reality that is not bound by space or time….. and we ever have a shot at being at that place…… then we have always existed. We have to already be there right now. Seriously, what point of reference is there in Heaven? How is it possible for you to arrive in Heaven? Your arrival would signify a moment in time, which doesn’t exist there. Right? If we are in the presence our our God and God is not bound by space or time then that means we also will not be bound by space or time and if that is the case then we had to have always been there….
Which opens the discussion for quantum physics. Here is a very elementary explanation of quantum physics that even my 6 year old can someone grasp:
So basically….. electrons only take an absolute position in space and time when they are being observed. Until they are observed, they are merely possibilities…… endless possible outcomes. There is no way I expect anyone reading this to understand that or even care to if they’ve not been into this sort of thing for a while. At one point, people thought the world was flat and that if you sailed far enough, you’d fall off the edge. What’s beyond the edge? Monsters. We can laugh at that now but do you understand that people dedicated their ENTIRE LIVES to proving that theory wrong?! Think about it. People invested all they had in their LIFE to proving that the world couldn’t possibly be flat. People were laughed at, mocked, outcasted…… and even KILLED for their belief that the world was, in fact, round. I don’t take that lightly at all. We owe it to the “crazies” of society because it’s the weirdos that push the limits…… without fear of ridicule and backlash…. Where would we be without the bold ones? Think about it.
Anyways. So the mere fact that electrons choose position only upon being observed means that what we consider as being real……isn’t really real at all…. We already know that atoms mainly consist of empty space. Now we know that those barely there nuclei are surrounded by these sketchy electrons that only appear “there” when you call them out. To put it in layman’s terms…. this computer that I am typing on is so barely there that it’s basically like, not even here….
Anyways this lead me to the whole conspiracy theory that we are living in a simulation much like the matrix. I watched all 20 of the videos in this series:
I don’t totally agree with or completely grasp everything that was mentioned in the above videos but a lot of the information is certainly compelling enough to investigate further….
Before I go further, I want to state….. I know I can’t know everything. I don’t expect to know everything. I don’t expect to understand. I also know that there are things that NONE of us will EVER comprehend in this lifetime because we are bound by earthly laws and there exists a place beyond these laws that we must obey….. and we’ll never grasp that concept until we have been set free from our current setup. I get it. BUT. I will never use that as justification for not embarking on an endless search of knowledge. People are so irresponsible they’re all like, “Well, we’ll never have all the answers so we might as well enjoy the world while we can!” Remember….. had we all kept that mentality, we’d still be thinking that monsters awaited us at the edge of the horizon. So cut it out. That is an excuse people use when they don’t want to invest the brain capacity into thinking of something outside of their new hairdos, meal plans and gym memberships or whatever else normal people are into. I think we are all on our own personal journeys and I have felt, my entire life, called to understand more. It’s so rooted into my existence that I know no other way of being. This is just who I am, it’s who I have always been. I have also always had this knowledge ingrained within that this life isn’t all there is….. and i’ve always felt this cord that connects me to what is beyond this life….. The older I get, the more pressing this becomes….
Ok so after watching the series above, I began watching this series, of which I just completed part two:
Disclaimer: If you can’t watch material from an objective standpoint, I wouldn’t even recommend watching anything I EVER post on this blog lol. I choose to make up my mind AFTER I have objectively analyzed the information. I don’t get offended by much because if it doesn’t sync up with my beliefs or view of the world, I just discard it. It’s that simple. I take only what I need.
This is on the very cutting edge of scientific research…… but to sum it up, what we perceive as being an “objective reality” out there….. may not even be real…. of course it is real to us because this is all that we know but it isn’t real in the sense that we take in information from a world that exists with or without us….. it’s way too deep…. but I am telling you, if you care about this sort of thing at ALL, I HIGHLY recommend at least the first two videos of this workshop. I can’t speak for the other videos, as I haven’t watched them yet…..
God spoke the universe into existence and I believe that with all of my heart and soul. (Btw, I actually watched another documentary about how at the beginning of creation there only existed sound waves and so basically that gives a very literal sense to the whole “in the beginning there was the Word….” But that doesn’t mean a very precise act of creation didn’t take place…. you know, when we say He spoke it into existence, we often get this “abracadabra” image of creation in our minds….. poof! Universe. God only needs to speak it for it to exist…… but in speaking it into existence, an absolutely amazing process took place and I don’t think our brains will ever be able to handle that information…. but according to this idea….. our brains are actually receiving a signal from an outside source……. I’m not even going to attempt to explain it like dude did….. you’ll have to watch it for anything I say to make sense….
What if these vessels we are in really *aren’t* real in the sense that we define reality? What if we really are in a simulation? What if when we die, we’re really just opting out of the simulation?
I’ve also watched a bunch of documentaries that explain how water is like a giant source of information…. and that it contains memories…. How crazy is that? YouTube it. “Water has memory”. That sort of puts a new spin on the whole being baptized thing….. seriously, if you understand what water actually does…. you’ll just sort of think of things in a more “woooowwwwww” sort of way….
And also….. plants are intelligent. Youtube that. “Plant consciousness”. That will also make you think about why “going out into the wilderness” aspect of the Bible might have really been significant….
The world is just so complex and I really, truly believe that we aren’t getting the real deal, here. I really feel that we have been blinded. I am happy, regardless. I am still full of joy at the fact that I am here…. but I am for sure on a mission. Sorry that my blog has turned into conspiracy ground zero here lol. I go in and out of this phase……..
Btw, I bought 5 plants….. and I bought them under the assumption that these little bastards are actually thinking stuff lol. So i’m like….. playing them Mozart and high fiving them every once in a while. The bamboo is Frank but the other ones don’t seem like they have much of a personality so i’ve not named them yet. I’m joking not joking. Oh and i’ve decided the family needs a for real microscope….. for research purposes lol. Out.
Edit LOL: So I got partially into the third installment of the holographic universe series when they mentioned that it is “consciousness” that sends us the “script” for our life story. This universal “consciousness” is what makes everything able to exist. I set this to private because I don’t want to confuse people…. but this is my blog and I get it. They can call it consciousness, I call Him God….. I think the idea of a holographic universe is on the right track and, to me, only lines up with much of what the Bible says about our world and our existence. So don’t go thinking i’m part of a new age cult or anything. I may look back on this in 5 years and think “Wow, you were pretty loony, Kristi” because I talk to myself, so there ya go.
Also, I feel it’s important to add this. There was a time in my mid-twenties where I thought it was very childish to continue to question things the way I do. Like, I am fully aware of the fact that I have a childlike questioning operation…. so don’t even think that I feel i’m not aware of how random and childish I may appear at times…. anyways, I became aware of that and so I stopped. I stopped digging into these subjects and just worried about the “here and now” and just typical life of bills and shit. But that just didn’t feel right. After a while, I felt like I was selling out lol. I think all adults reach that pivotal moment where they can actually make a choice…. do they give up their awe and wonder of the world and trade it in for a tie and a briefcase? Do they stop questioning, start accepting and running in the rat race? Do they stay on the hamster wheel, so long as there is a paycheck? I think we should all take some notes from our children. They soak up information. They are full of awe and wonder. They have no preconceived notions about the world. They are open to anything you tell them and they don’t really judge it. Everything is possible to a child. That thirst for knowledge turns into drive and energy in the teenage years….. the sort of ambition that changes the world if it is channeled correctly….. but by adulthood, we are beaten down and defeated and forced to submit to the idea that life is nothing more than 1) traditional education 2) career 3) marriage 4) kids 5), 6), 7), etc…… just this sequence of steps, this one-size-fits-all approach to life. We grab our ladders and jump right into the box that society has established for us…… and we look at people like me, who still question things like a child, as being “immature”….. so that’s just some food for thought!
It is my responsibility and moral obligation to inform everyone that I am nearing the end of the fourth video in the 5 part series about the holographic universe…. and I have determined that this man, if he truly believes this stuff, is a total fucking loon. I don’t think the entire theory is derailed as a result….. the first part where he was in the quantum physics of it, seems pretty legit…. it where the quantum physics ended and the metaphysics began that everything went south. Sorry, dude. I am not a sim and that is NOT the ego talking lol. Geez.